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Where the rubber meets the road. How real life experiences and knowledge are woven into my writing.

Status Update

46236386-cat-s-cradle.jpgI’m listening to a playlist from the Metatron’s Army series.

It works for multiple books in the Endgame part of the series.

The landing page for Bind: Book 9 of the series is now up.  The book trailer will be posted soon.  The book will be available for purchase in February 2019.

I have passed Diagonals: Book 10 in the series to the beta reader.

It is scheduled for release in April 2019.

I am hard at work on multiple other projects, including winding down the Metatron’s Army Series.

Stay Tuned.





Here is the landing page for Bind:



What’s New in 2019!

imageHappy 2019!

Listening to Above and Beyond by Bassnectar & Seth Drake from Divergent Spectrum and getting Bind:  Book 9 in the Metatron’s Army Series ready for a February release.

I’ve got a lot of exciting projects this year!

Port Gallatan.  After stepping away from the Port Gallatan project for several months I’ve figured out what needs to happen.

Read:  Where to take this project.

Due to factors beyond my control, I hit a wall immediately prior to the release of Soothsayer, the follow on to Port in a Storm.  Knowing I wasn’t going to be able to progress until I resolved the issue, I stepped away from the novel.

It was more than not liking the plot.  I needed to understand how I got so off course to begin with.  I refused to go back to the project until I had a resolution to both of those issues.

I am happy to say that as of this morning both issues have been resolved.

If you can believe, I was left with the opening music to The Waltons playing in my head for over an hour after!  It is so inconvenient at times to have imagery serve as a metaphor, even if it’s helpful.

Metatron’s Army.  I continue to work on the End Game of the series and prepare novels for periodic release. Diagonals:  Book Ten in the series is scheduled for an April 2019 release.

Something New.  In addition to new releases in quirky Port Gallatan, I’m looking forward to an exciting new project that will follow Metatron’s Army.  I’ll be releasing additional information as it becomes available.

Starting Spring 2019.

Odds and Ends.  I continue to update as appropriate.

Stay Tuned!

Bringing a Story to Life: Author at Work


Thought I’d provide an update on what I’m working on.

Still not exactly sure how many books will end up in the series. It’s an ongoing situation.

The saga, which I’d never planned on publishing, has developed over several decades.

For more on this see my Youtube Channel videos regarding how Metatron’s Army came to be.

The End?  The Endgame began taking shape several years ago while I was packing Legos in preparation for a move to San Diego.

As I was listening to INXS, an image of the Vetria System near the Balen border appeared in my mind’s eye.  Sorting Legos into Ziplock bags, I took time to focus on what I was seeing.  The image gave me “end pieces.” The message was that the end was – in a way – only the beginning. 

Given the surreal experiences I’ve had since taking on this project, I can see why.

Tucking it away for future consideration, I went back to packing.

Remember, at this point I had no intention of publishing the series.  I was intrigued by the idea of an “end” but didn’t really believe it.  After all, why stop feeding me information after thirty-three years?

The publishing of this story has been fun and frustrating, an adventure that is somewhat satisfying.

I say that last bit because I feel like the observer – as if someone else is in charge of this and I – like the reader – am waiting to see where it all goes. 

  • I’m busy planning my next projects.

I will be releasing videos that speak to the launching of a new project.

  • I’m working to get Bind:  Book 9 in the series ready for a February release.

Done, Yet Not…  Even as I’m working on the Endgame books in the series, I need to go back to the Middlegame books, to finish them out.

Even as the new project begins to take shape, I have to edit and prepare the rest of the MA books.

  • I’m also continuing to gain incredible insight into EMF Sensitivity and a number of related, if sometimes esoteric, concepts.

And am determining the best way to release that information.

So, lots to look forward to…



Happpy Holidays 2018!!!

Bringing a Story to Life: Living the Dream?

DREAMSo, listening to The Prophet’s Song from Night at the Opera and realizing that I’ve been working on my dream of being a novelist a lot longer than I thought.

I’ll be honest – Not having a great day.  Didn’t start out well waking up from a nightmare at 5:30am only to go downhill from there.

I was thinking about how I’m coming to the end of the Metatron’s Army series and though I kind of dread the end, I’m looking forward to it as well.

After all, it’s taken up over 2 years of my life (just the writing part – not the 35 + in building it) and counting.

As I considered how I basically work seven days a week and all but eighteen hours a day – not counting dreams – it occurred to me.  This isn’t new.

My first declaration of being a writer came when I was three.

Those who laughed at me.  I wonder – was it that I was going to be a writer or because I was only three and already knew what I wanted to do when I grew up?

I did take a detour into math and science and Olympic dreams only to be yanked back to writing via a brain hemorrhage and NDE.

Since MA basically came from that I can’t help but wonder at the hairpin turn in the road and what it might mean in terms of destiny to be a writer. 

Even as I weaved back into the land of science, math, and engineering after the surgery, I never quit writing.

  • I filled high school notebooks with stories.

That will never see the light of day and have already been sacrificed to the fire gods.

  • I sat in boring college lectures and even more boring staff meetings and wrote stories in my head.

That I either wrote during the boredom or jotted down at the earliest opportunity to get my hands on paper napkin, plate, magazine edge, Styrofoam coffee cup, tea bag papers, etc

  • I filled boxes to the brim with typewritten stories – short stories – novellas – novels –
  • I wrote at night after putting in a full day of work followed by college classes at night, while a passenger in a car, as a guest at weddings of people I didn’t know, at boring family parties.

Writing on cups, plates, napkins, anything I could scribble on.

All those years spent writing, I now see I wasn’t only working on the craft, I was working toward my dream.

Practice makes perfect.

Even my time spent in a corporate black hole learning good business practices and etiquette were providing the foundation for my current career.

Writing is a business.

I once visited the San Francisco office of a friend who was just starting out on his own after parachuting from the corporate black hole.  He was a bit ambiguous about the small space.  Me?  I was thrilled!  Someone besides me was living their dream!

As an outsider, it was easy for me to see that he was living his dream in spite of the modest accoutrements.

I never saw this in my own struggles.  I only saw wall after wall of water coming at me while I paddled my little boogie board alongside others.

It occurred to me that many people may not realize they are actually already on the road to fulfilling their dreams because they may not recognize it for what it is.

Permission Slips?  Ha!  I recently attended a U of M alumni meeting for entrepreneurs and would-be entrepreneurs.  At the end of the evening I realized a number of young passionate individuals seemed to be waiting for permission to pursue their dreams.

Forget it – ain’t happenin’  Only person who will give you that permission is the one looking back at you in the mirror.

One of the guys attending asked me what was the final straw that had me leaving the black hole for theoretically lighter pastures.

The answer was too complicated to go into and it would probably be different for everyone.

There’s a saying among writers that the day you are reading and think you can do it better is the day you should become a writer.  My own foray  into the field didn’t happen along those lines but I get the philosophy and it’s a good one that applies broadly.

Tap on the Shoulder…Pssst….I knew three months before I resigned that change was in the air.

  • I was putting the finishing touches on my doctoral thesis.
  • My company had just gone through a merger and I had court-side tickets to the insanity and stupidity.
  • The stars were lined up, pointing toward a writer’s conference in NY.
  • CHANGE was whispering through my soul

What I failed to recognize is that the point I was standing at wasn’t the head of the trail that led to a writing career – it was halfway in.

Pffffft!  When I’m feeling particularly frustrated because I don’t recognize the path – because I’m too busy clearing with a machete, I think of a quote I saw at the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame

The chart-topping success of “Heart of Gold” “put me in the middle of the road.  Traveling there soon became a bore, so I headed for the ditch.  A rougher ride but I saw more interesting people there.”

And so it goes…

Are you living your dream but not recognizing it for what it is?

Back to Book 12…

Bringing a Story to Life: Inspired By

images.jpegI’m preparing Bind: Book Nine in the Metatron’s Army Series to pass along to the beta reader.

Not sure exactly what it is about this one in particular but it’s been such a joy to read 

The scene I’m working through brought to mind the unique process by which this entire series has come to life

Inspired.  This story has always been unique.

Inspired by the NDE 

Inspired by does not mean everything in the book was witnessed or experienced.  It does mean a tremendous amount of thought and planning went into the development of the plot.

The story is a unique amalgam of pieces envisioned and thought up over a period of thirty-five plus years, including two of deep professional grade strategy.

Built.  The story itself is unique in that it was wrapped around a set of existing “facts.”

There were certain characters and locations that made up the original.  Everything else – fleshing it all out – was designed.

The hardest part was the Opening Game.

The chess theme just fell into place but it works.

This was a major decision because I either had to create a backstory that was elaborate or I had to skip it because in-between would never work.

Would never ever do justice to the characters.

I basically started with the Middle/End Game section and though I knew how it ended, I had to work backward.

No small feat.

It may be why I’ve enjoyed the Middle Game so much – it’s familiar.

Considered.  As to the scene I’m working on currently.  That was never part of the original story, nor the one I built to bring Metatron’s Army to life.

The beta reader asked a question and though I never answered it, I thought, “Hmmm…”

Based on consideration of the question, I decided to modify the story appropriately.

I then had to wait several months to implement the change.

It is one of the best decisions I’ve made.

Inspired by a question.

Bringing a Story to Life: In the Flesh

mirror_capgrasDowntime between novels but I’m far from idle.

Laying the groundwork for upcoming projects.

One of the projects brought to mind a rather interesting coincidence – finding my characters in the flesh.

Which has happened more than once.

The first time, I was at the Sandbar  in Scottsdale, AZ.  It was a working lunch so I was sitting in a booth in the bar. The bartender came over to take my order and when I looked up my eyes widened.

Big time!

The guy was a double for Parmeet Sarin, the romantic lead in The Seer, the final in the [Okracoke] Awakening Series.

He was such an exact match, he could have been Parmeet.

Knowing my expression was likely freaking him out, I quickly explained he was the perfect model for a main character in my upcoming novel.

He was amused.  Especially when I told him the guy was the romantic lead.  He said he couldn’t wait to tell his wife and mom.

It was really a shock to see my character  – down to every detail of appearance – in the flesh.

Fast forward a few years and it happened again.

With a different character in a different book.

This time I was having a casual lunch over the summer and looked up to see the main character – the protagonist – in the upcoming Metatron’s Legacy.

Not certain of a release date at this time.  Likely autumn 2019.

The young woman who was summer help was an exact match, including height, build,  hair color and style.

Not to mention, the attitude.  She carried herself with the same jaded but not too jaded air, as if daring anyone to criticize her.

She was the right age, too.

Though I didn’t mention it to her, I couldn’t help but be a bit in awe of that type of coincidence – not once but twice.

 Just another in a long list of interesting events that cross my path.

Release Schedule Update

ma8-coverI am excited to announce that Pin:  Book 8 in the Metatron’s Army Series will be released December 1, 2018. 

The trailer is available for viewing.

I will be shortening the release cycle for the remainder of the books in the series.

A wonderful and unexpected outcome of the transition from Middlegame to Endgame.

Though there is a lot of work yet to be done to complete the series, I already have my eyes on new exciting projects.

S tay tuned…

Bringing a Story to Life: Single Title V Series

book_series-300x200As an author, I think one of my favorite stories comes from Dianna Gabaldon and since I heard it second hand I won’t quote her.

The story was related several years ago during an Oakland, CA RWA Chapter meeting – told by a NY Times Best Selling author who was trying to make a point as she shared nuggets of wisdom with us.  This author was (and is) the epitome of grace with a no-nonsense down to earth style.

Apparently, Diana was surprised – perhaps flummoxed – to find her Outlander novel filed under Romance.

It was fiction in her eyes.

The lesson that came out of it from the wonderful author talking to our group that Saturday morning was, “To sell your work to a publisher, they have to know where to put it on the shelf.”

In other words, you have to do most of the work for them before you even get a contract.

The story reminded me of when Bill Gates tried to sell the PC to Hewlett and Packard, who apparently asked, “…but what is it good for?”

In other words, how do we sell it – and to who?

The other two take-aways from that session were:

  • Get control of your covers. No bodice rippers as it makes us all seem like air-heads

I was always fascinated by the disgust the female authors had over how they were stereotyped and perhaps lessened by the marketing done to get their stuff off the shelf.

  • If you love something, you’ll find the time to do it

 One of the participants went off on how “it must be nice to be married to a rich doctor so you have time to be a novelist” to which the author smiled and replied, “I got up at 4am every morning to put in two hours of writing time before going to work so I could put my husband through Med School and now he is a surgeon and I’m a writer whose hard work paid off.”

So, where to put something on a shelf – how do you describe your work – that’s a big part of selling it.

I always tell people I do paranormal fiction and I will occasionally mention “romantic elements” but I don’t say “I write romance” because I don’t.  Nothing against romance but my stuff is spy or action adventure or sci-fi but always time travel, ghosts, parallel universes – with people who have sex – yeah – but that isn’t romance – that’s … being an adult? 

Another consideration is whether the story is a single title or part of a series.

This is a hell of a lot harder than one might think.

First of all, there is no wrong way with this.  Whatever the story is – it is.  But it can be easy to get sucked into a series if you aren’t careful.

This is especially true when you start falling in love with characters other than your main characters.

Sometimes, it’s a no-brainer.

I always knew the Kerry’s Game Series was going to be a series.  Each of the characters who work for the paranormal investigation company HQ’d in San Francisco were going to have their own stories.

Metatron’s Army was also a no-brainer though I did spend almost a year deciding on the format for that one.  I realized that having each book being like a chapter in the main character’s life was the best way to go.  To try to short cut the back story would not serve the reader and it would not serve me as the writer.

Other books started as a single title and became part of a series.


And I also have Port Gallatan.

This one is different.  The “series” which I’m not sure I’m even going to do because it was never intended to be one – is around a small town rather than a group of characters.

Interestingly, this conundrum is part of an author’s identity.

Something I’m just coming to understand.

I had two different male colleagues misinterpret the scope of books I’d written.

  • In one case, he thought Kerry’s Game was going to be a series about Kerry rather than one for each investigator.
  • In the Port Gallatan situation, he thought everything would be about Clint.

Neither was the case, nor was it ever meant to be the case.

This would be another consideration for a traditional contract – how do we position the author – series or single title?

Where’d They GOOOOOOoooo?  I have a couple of authors I love to read who started a series and then, for whatever reason, quit before it made sense.

Talk about leaving people hanging.

I keep checking back on Amazon to see if they have released anything and to my continued disappointment, no.

In one instance, the author’s adult daughter posted an explanation – her mom took time off to be a mom and though she is still around, she isn’t writing so no – don’t look for any more in her wonderful historical romance series.

Which was actually paranormal fiction but again – it’s about where a publisher thinks they can sell it. 

The attitude.  I have been lucky enough to attend two different RWA conferences.  One when I was a fledgling fiction writer and another later when I was the veteran indie writer.

In the earlier one – 2003 – I had just earned my doctorate – my company was going through merger hell – I walked.

Did the Titanic.  Not interested in the sequel.  Btw:  I’m not kidding.  We had a sandwich board at that company that said, “The difference between us and the Titanic – at least the Titanic had a band.”

A newbie, I sat at tables and watched and listened.  What I saw was an industry – if not a nation – in transition.

  • New York Times Best Selling Writers who’d never been employed out of the home and had no college education versus Harvard graduate authors who were employed full-time and also NY Best Selling Writers.
  • Older authors who referred to their male agents and editors as their spouses – when they weren’t – and younger authors who basically said “Screw that”
  • Older authors who talked about completing a manuscript as being as difficult as birthing a baby (um – no) and younger authors who looked at them like “Seriously?”  I plead the fifth but vomit comes to mind.  Especially with the whole agent/editor as a spouse thing.  Do their spouses know this?  Do the spouses of the agents/editors?!
  • Older authors who said “Chocolate and hugs and crying with your editor solves everything” and younger authors who said “When the going gets tough the tough get going.”

I literally sat there and listened to the fireworks.


Honestly, each side had a lot of wisdom and a lot of right but they were too busy being threatened by each other I guess.  Or rather not understanding that it was a Brave New World for authors – just as it is now because – for better or for worse – Smashwords brought the Publishing world to its knees.

So a lot of burden goes on an indie writer.

Even one with a lot of corporate experience.

And at the end of the day I find one of my biggest struggles isn’t marketing or what search words to use but whether or not to make a story part of a series.

Each author needs to do what works for them for each project.

Bringing a Story to Life: In Character – In You

figure-thinking-mdFor the past several days I’ve been trying to finish a difficult scene in Promotion:  Book 11 in the Metatron’s Army Series.

The difficulty comes from the complexity involved.

 This book in general has been a challenge since I ended up with two versions of it.

My misguided attempt to better organize the files.

I was at least able to choose which of the versions to use and was making great progress when things started grounding to a halt.

As I had a lot going on at the time I tried stepping away – only to find I couldn’t.  I needed to get back to it.

The style of the scene – which is actually several scenes that alternate – is something I’ve never done before but it fits the progression of the story and the series perfectly.  Unfortunately, and likely due to the nature of that style – it is incredibly awkward – for me.

When I read back through it it’s fine – seamless – makes sense. 

The challenge comes from having to swap between characters going through a similar experience in two different locations.

No, not two different dimensions.  Those I can do!  Not different timelines either.

One of the alternating scenes was becoming smoother but that made sense since I knew those characters better.  Thinking that was the source of the problem – that I didn’t know the other characters as well – I took myself to lunch at a local place so I could work on it.

I went close to when it opens so it would not be crowded, chose a table away from others, ordered a glass of wine and pulled out pen and notebook.  By the time my turkey sandwich arrived, I had seven pages written.

It helped but not in the way I intended.  Getting away and working on a different angle – character backstory for one of the characters in a different context altogether – enabled me to look at the awkward scene with new, less distracted eyes.

It didn’t solve the awkwardness issue, however.

And I was getting tired of reading from the beginning.  My eyes were starting to cross!

As I sat down to again attack the situation I realized why the scene is so awkward!  It’s supposed to be!  That’s the point of it!  The characters themselves are feeling awkward!

Ironically, this tells me I did a good job with the situation because I was feeling that awkwardness!

The style was fine – transitioning between the parallel situations – it was the one alternating scene – the characters in it – that was the issue.

I’m about to get back to it but with fresh eyes.

Eyes of writer and reader both!

**  Decided to take a detour through a music break – Motley Crue – Dr. Feelgood and Shout at the Devil.  Just the thing to get the brain cells workin…

Bringing a Story to Life: Time to Pay the Piper

clipart-scotland-8Well, I’ve gone as far as I can and now I have to decide which of the two paths to “dark moment” resolution I’m going to take.

It really will have to be one or the other.

At least I’m prepared.

I spent a better part of the afternoon sorting through folders and better organizing my files.

I have a feeling that I’m going to use the stuff I wrote originally, last summer.

It provides more insight into the character relationships than the actions that drove them.

In going this route it better serves the story in its original form.

It doesn’t affect the ending or the endgame novels.

The Madness.  It took a lot of preparation to get to this point.

  • I reread books 8 and 9
  • I reorganized my files
  • I reorganized my play lists
  • I used up my get out of jail free cards (distractions)

I also took care of some of the slivers in my life; issues I’d let go because I was so focused on what I was doing with the MA series.

I pushed back on people who’d been taking advantage of the fact I was otherwise distracted. 

The Method.  I basically have to open several files simultaneously and go back and forth, knitting together the progression that leads the way.

The only way out is through.

A bit of encouragement.  I heard from my beta reader, who is nearing the end of Pin: Book 8 in the series.  They said they didn’t want to stop reading to go eat dinner and as soon as they’re finished, they are going back to the story.

The dishes can wait, apparently.

That was cool.