A Day in the Life of a Writer with GMF Sensitivity

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People who’ve followed me over the years know I have a unique history with EMF and GMF Sensitivity.  Though I have unraveled the mystery of my sensitivity to technology EMFs – heavy metal poisoning that messed up cell signaling by disrupting electrolytes – I am still aware of various electromagnetic frequencies.

Including and especially the ultra-low and very low frequencies that come out of fault lines in the hours and days before an earthquake.

Though my focus is now on writing fiction, there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t learn or validate something about my relationship with these invisible sound waves that have such an impact on our world.

And human health and well-being.

Just before all the virus fun started, our family acquired a bearded dragon.  The timing was, like so many things in my life, a happy coincidence.  Not.

Not that it wasn’t happy – the timing wasn’t a coincidence.  Obviously, the universe knew what was coming and knew what a gift this little guy who isn’t so little now would be.

Well, not that anyone sought my opinion but, he ended up in my space.

It’s technically common living space but as it’s where I do the bulk of my writing, it’s mine.

Over the months I’ve gotten to know this member of the family, his habits, expressions.

Unlike how Ryal Kinkaid refers to the Light Beings, I don’t consider our BD a lizard brain.

Yesterday I noticed he was acting a bit strangely.  Since there was a power outage that necessitated we hook the lights warming his space to the generator, I wondered if it had to do with that though I couldn’t figure out how or why that might be the case.

He periodically acted as if he’d been zapped but there was no obvious way there could have been surges that would have caused it.  Not to mention I’m so sensitive to electrical pulses I would have been impacted because I was sharing the power strip to which his lights were plugged in – frequently plugging and unplugging devices from it as they needed charging.  There was never any dimming of his lights when I did this – no sparks – nothing. ANDDD – he didn’t do it when I was plugging or unplugging the devices – just periodically.

This afternoon I was working on Refugee, a Metatron’s Army novel, when I suddenly felt icky.  Ignoring it since there was no obvious explanation, I continued working.

Didn’t work.

I decided to have lunch, see if that might help.  Just as I sat down to eat I got a nasty sharp pain in one of my teeth.

As if someone was jabbing a sewing needle up the center.

When chewing didn’t make it any worse, I shrugged it off and kept at the novel  hoping – and believing – it would resolve itself.

I’ve noticed while rebalancing my electrolytes I’ll periodically if seldomly get pain in my mouth that totally disappears once the balancing has been achieved.  Pain that stays away.  You know – like a cramp in the foot – growing pains?  NORMAL?!

A telltale sound caught my attention at the same moment my visual attention went to a row of windows.  EARTHQUAKE!!!!!!

The sound wave travels in a straight line which makes windows “pop” or “crack” – like Rice Crispies.  

For years my focus has turned – often along with my eyes – to the direction the earthquake wave travels.  

Even when I wake up out of a sound sleep moments before the quake hits. I turn my head in the direction of the oncoming wave.

I knew in that moment my tooth pain would resolve shortly.

As the GMFs that caused it went to zero.

All of a sudden a number of things made sense

  • The bearded dragon’s behavior

Just prior to the small quake he’d been running from one end of the tank to the other, went into his hidey hole then out, down into the greenery then out.  AFTER?  Totally calm.

  • An ache in my neck I hadn’t felt in eons.
  • The icky feeling

As I’ve written GMFs which are ultra-low and very low EMFS, are tied to feelings of despair, deep fatigue, hopelessness

  • Ringing ears

Throughout the day yesterday I experienced a high-pitched ringing that lasted seconds before disappearing entirely.  

  • The sharp pain in my tooth

Which reduced within seconds of the quake, disappearing entirely within forty minutes.

I am back at the novel after a break to share this with readers.

All a day in the life of a writer sensitive to electromagnetic frequencies.

PULLING THE THREAD

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I’m what some might call a synchronicity junkie.  

I think it stems from having a gift for pattern recognition.

Though I don’t see an omen every time I open my eyes I do acknowledge that wonderful and often amazing coincidences may be messages from the universe.  As such I hold those who act as the messenger in high regard.

Many times people don’t even know they’ve been one making it all the better.

Grasping a Thread.  Several months back a friend asked a question, followed by what would seem an innocuous comment about goals.  Though I responded that updating my goals was on my to-do list, I didn’t do much other than jot a few down.

I set the list aside and haven’t looked at it since.

Pulling a Thread.  What neither of us realized at the time was that her harmless bit of polite conversation let loose energy that had been blocked behind other more pressing needs.

It was the total disruption of the pandemic that allowed for the space in which to address those needs clearing the way to circle back to the goals.

The Spool Unwinds.  As the holidays approached, I was putting the finishing touches on Redemption.  Without a looming deadline I decided to turn my attention back to the goals, focusing on professional ones first.  Before Redemption even hit the press, I’d totally revamped my goals.

I even managed to work in a few personal ones.

The Empty Spool.  By the time the New Year rolled around I’d completely revamped my web presence in a manner that reflected the updated goals.  It was time to turn my energy back to writing.  

It IS Empty!  The mental and emotional energy spent throughout the intense process that spanned months left me struggling to get started.

I was spent.

Pick Up The Thread.  Though I recognized the need for a break I also knew what would happen if I went much longer without writing.

Panic!

My mind would look for another place to focus and the next thing I know I’d be doing housework!

Cleaning a house that I’d already cleaned.

To prevent such a downward spiral, I went through the motions of writing the next story.

Fortunately, there’s plenty of up-front work to do before I even start typing the first chapter; work that can still make me feel productive.

Pick Up The Spool.  As I allowed my energy to recharge, I tested the waters for which of the three stories under consideration I would work on first – by thinking about it.

It’s Still Empty.  At this point I realized that while I was comfortable with my choice and the follow-on steps to make it happen, there were problems.  

Problems I didn’t understand the nature of though I knew it wasn’t mental exhaustion.  I had recharged enough to get back to writing.

I decided to hand the problem over to my subconscious.

I have a trick to help this process using what I learned about the alpha frequency in the Silva Method.

When that didn’t do it, I pulled out the big guns.

Event Horizon.

For several days I worked through Event Horizon exercises, focusing on a variety of topics only some of which were related to my career.

I gained insight into a number of other non-career concerns and even got the plot for a new series.

Freed of mental clutter I was able to start on the novel.  

However…

The Unraveling Continues.  This morning while I was going through the routine that primes the creative pump I came to see that the reason I was having trouble was because my goal revamping wasn’t finished.

I debated between running an Event Horizon session or the Free Cell session.

As I’d just done several EVs I decided to try the FC.

I listened to music from novel inspired playlists while playing rounds of Free Cell.  

It’s so mindless my mind relaxes – aka Silva Method Daydream State AND Stare – so I can focus on problem solving.

The Free Cell method showed that since the goals for my career changed the goals of the series needed to change too.  As I followed this thought through David Bowie and other artists I identified flaws not in the series but with some of the characters.

They were too shallow or otherwise had flaws that were going to cause problems in the very near future.

I’m happy to say that I worked everything out and now have a roadmap forward.

And all because of an innocent question…

Stay tuned.

update

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For the past several weeks I’ve been implementing changes to my website as I sharpen my focus and evaluate my goals.

Where I am and where I want to go.

  • Lessons from the Edge has been cancelled***

As a nonfiction, it didn’t fit in with my goals for the Metatron’s Army Series.

  • Metatron’s Army works

Details and release dates to come.

Release date late winter/early spring 2021.

Details and release dates to come.

  • Additional videos

Updates provided as appropriate.

Stay tuned.

*** For those interested in the Lecture on Time, it is available in its entirety in Bishop Pair: Book Two in the Metatron’s Army series.

REDEMPTION NOW AVAILABLE

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I am pleased to announce that Redemption, a Dragon Core story, is available for purchase.

It’s one of the longest books I’ve written.

I’ve thoroughly enjoyed working on this story and it’s turned into one of my favorites.

Along with Metatron’s Legacy which was a joy because, taking place twenty years after Adjudication, I had freedom to write a story related to but outside the series.

I have other novels I love for a variety of reasons but these two do stand out.

So much so I find myself reading them just for pleasure.

I have a number of projects in the queue

  • Videos
  • Website Content
  • Another Dragon Core story

Stay tuned!

Bringing a Story to Life: Alien Romance

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1920x1080_px_abstract_angel_artwork_demon_fantasy_Art-774620.jpg!d-2Just listening to the playlist I created for the upcoming Dragon Core series and finishing final edits on Analysis:  Book 12 in the Metatron’s Army Series.

I need to remind myself I have upcoming projects as I wind down this series.  It’s been with me so long I occasionally feel a twinge of anxiety about it ending.

As I wind down the series, two elements have taken center stage.

  • Reveals
  • Relationships

Reveals. In coming along on a journey that traversed thirteen installments, readers of the series have put their trust in me.

The nature of the story necessitated this format where each book in the series is like a chapter in the life of the main character, who was born in one universe, raised in another before returning to her home universe to fulfill her destiny.

To end a century’s old war and save a race of energy beings which are not always complimentary objectives.

My focus in these final books is to ensure I share various secrets and individual and collective character motivations that reveal the numerous plots within the plot in a way that honors that trust while not revealing too much at one time.

I need to keep the reader entertained – and guessing.

Relationships.  Relationships between a variety of characters definitely take center stage in these final books for the simple reason I need to answer the question Then what?

Through much of the series, the characters have worked together for a variety of common goals that included

  • training to do the jobs they need to do
  • doing those jobs to the best of their ability while continuing to grow as individuals
  • protecting each other and themselves while keeping their eye on the overall objective.

Having something in common does not equal compatibility though I have created characters who not only respect each other, they generally get along well, even as they often work at cross purposes.

Alien V. Culture. Most of the characters have grown up in a universe where different species are akin to what humans would consider a different culture.

It’s just no big deal to have different physiology or physical characteristics that make you stand out.

That doesn’t mean the different species trust each other, even as they work together for a common purpose.  Focusing on how those relationships evolve and transform throughout the series has been fun and something I only had an overarching understanding of.

I knew the overall goal but not what any specific character(s) would do to fulfill that goal. 

I’ve had the joy of allowing characters to evolve in such a way as to transform from being a minor background character to a main character that contributes significantly to the plot and the saga.

I didn’t plan for these changes, they just happened as the story progressed and I got to know certain characters better.

I also need to deal with interdimensional relationships as I’ve brought people from Earth to the Vetria system.

From Analysis:

“Look, can we file this under the Light Beings don’t understand humans category and move on to the reason you are in my apartment?”

“For the moment.”

Fuck.  He so did not want to get roped into the help the Light Beings understand the subtle nuances of intimate relations.

There is also the necessity of addressing how characters move from one type of a relationship to another.

  • From being team players to individual leaders as their careers transform
  • From reporting to someone to becoming a peer as the roles evolve
  • From colleagues to lovers
  • From culturally different species to lovers

On the path to love. Those last two points have been surprisingly less challenging than the two above.  It’s not only been a joy to take various characters from soldiers to lovers, it’s been relatively easy.

The key has been to think – really think – about the challenges they would face.

  • As an individual
  • A couple
  • A team
  • A community

Individual.  When dealing with different species I needed to take into account individual expectations based on social customs as well as individual likes, dislikes, expectations.

There’s Two.  I had to address the challenges of being a couple.

Emotion isn’t a switch to be turned on so imagine being involved with a species for who emotion was forbidden for centuries, for example.

Team Player.  I had to consider how the characters would view themselves in terms of their professional roles, as well as how their teammates would view any changes in relationships.

How do you go from soldiers who fight side by side to lovers? 

Who’s coming for dinner?!  Imagine bringing someone considered the enemy into a community with the implicit expectation that he would be entering into a romantic relationship with a member of that community.

Assuming the individual would have them to being with.

In this situation the relationship is under a microscope as every member of the community takes note of every move.

Which actually happens with multiple characters who enter into romantic liaisons.  As Christine puts it, the universe is watching.

To facilitate the process, I simply looked at each relationship through those four filters.

But wait!  The challenge has been to pace the development of the relationships relative to upcoming plot developments and the reality that such relationships typically evolve over a period of time.

As Christine says at one point, loving someone isn’t the same as being in love with them.

I have to think ahead to what the characters will be facing and make sure that their feelings and thoughts about the relationship are in line with where they are in the progression of the story.

There’s more!  And of course, there’s the whole physical side to the relationships.  That has been a lot of fun to deal with as I’ve had the challenge of incorporating different cultural and personal views on sexuality.

And stopped to think what would each character be worried or excited about in taking that step with the one they love.

This last was a central focus of multiple characters in Promotion: Book 11 in the series.

Front and Back. As I wrap this article before going back to Analysis, I will add that another facet of relationship development is the need to shift the romance from front and center to back burner out of necessity as characters remain true to their roles.

There’s still a war and they are still soldiers, even if some of them are now “closer.”

It has been fun even as it has been, in spite of the implication of emotion, an intellectual exercise.

Analysis will be available August 1, 2019.

Note:  This article is cross-posted to metatronsarmy.com.