Like so many I was going along merrily when the pandemic knocked me off the path and when I stood up I saw the path was gone. As someone who remembers the Hong Kong flu and SARS I, I knew we were in for it.
I was young with the Hong Kong flu but it made quite the impression given both my parents got it and my brother and I were shipped off to grandparents for duration.
I initially channeled the frustration into writing.
I wrote five books in about that many weeks!
After that was done – we were about a year in – I turned back to the washed out path and tried to decide what I was going to do with it. As someone who has had to rebuild my life a number of times when plans went sideways I felt confident I could figure something out.
That tenacity incidentally is how I figured out the whole EMF Sensitivity fiasco!
The devastation went much further along that path than I imagined. I did my best to continue focusing on what I could control.
Writing.
It was working and likely would have continued to work had multiple outside stressors not popped up.
Including extended isolation.
Incredibly frustrated I reached out to a friend via email to get his take on turning focus to more positive energies. He had some good words for me to contemplate but it was in thinking them over later that I found my answer. It wasn’t what he suggested that led me to this place but the idea that I didn’t want to let him down. I didn’t want to be one of those people who “dumps and runs.”
Tells you every bad thing and then you don’t hear from them again until months or years later when they say “Oh, that? Oh that’s not a problem anymore…”
It isn’t that I regularly tap him or anyone and in fact my mom and I are both people who deliberately isolate ourselves and don’t communicate when things are rough for the simple fact we don’t want to spread negativity.
I can always tell when things aren’t going well for her because I won’t hear anything. Ha ha.
For me to have reached out like that meant I was in a pickle in terms of knowing what to do and that he took the time to give me his thoughts on life? I didn’t want to let him down.
I also didn’t want to spread fake cheer so I resolved not to respond to his email until I had something genuine to report.
Today was that day.
I’m going to share how I pulled myself out of the funk because it might help others going through tough times.
From the email:
…But – college can’t teach you how to recreate your life when a pandemic wipes out the path you were on. That has been a lot of the trouble. Two years in I am beyond fatigued. Which is why I am determined to create something new.
To that end I gave it a lot of thought and decided a decent place to start was to go back to when I was in a bad spot in my life eons ago and do now what I did then.
Visualization and meditation.
I have a unique way to do meditation because it dovetails prayer of thanks for family, friends, health, etc. Then moves along a guided path that I had luck with in the mid 90s which were not happy times for me.
I refer to them as the Corporate Black Hole years.
So far so good and I’m getting some interesting results. I am having more vivid dreams than I did and I’m definitely sleeping better.
Psychic dreams!
I don’t have an end vision per se but just going through the familiar practice and following where it goes is having a positive impact. It probably helps that I had a very positive outcome the last time I used this.
I really turned my life around.
End of Email Inclusion
I do not have a specific vision that I am moving toward so much as just going through the relaxation/visualization/meditation process I developed years ago. It’s a kluge of Dr. Taub’s guided meditation script that I’ve modified combined with Silva’s Long Relax, and a bit of Fairlyland City from Robert Stone’s Celestial 911.
This is more or less the same kluge I began in 1996 after stumbling on Shakti Gawain’s Creative Visualization Workbook.
Which inspired me to follow an internal nudge to go to a different Border’s Books where I found Celestial 911 which listed the Silva Method as a resource which sent me to the BLS in Akron, Ohio, which…
I bought the Dr. Taub health pack at a party hosted by one of my aunts.
I’ve never looked back. I even have them on Mp3 – they are that helpful!
I’ve loaned the casettes to others over the years when they were going through a rough spot.
Every one of them got good results.
I donated them about a year ago.
Feeling Better
I’m not sure which is responsible for the quick improvement – the process or the fact I had great success with it before.
In the Silva Method we learn to review previous successes as a way to “prime” the unconscious for continued success.
What I do know is that within days of doing this very unique kluge I’m feeling better and more optimistic than a week ago.
And yet nothing in the observable world has changed.
I know my friend is equally frustrated with the way life went sideways so I suggested if there were any old tools in his arsenal – a flashlight to light the way – he repurpose them.
It is advice I’m putting out in general.
Be well!
Elizabeth Maxim 