Am I Going to Die: We Need To Tell Our Stories

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I read an article while having lunch and a statement struck me to the degree I felt compelled to post this blog.  

From the article:  “It feels like a death,” Point Reyes rancher Kevin Lunny told SFGATE. “Other ranchers are telling me they feel the same way. It’s the only home and address we’ve ever known. It’s who we are — it’s our identity.”

It’s Our Identity

Upon reading this statement I was taken back to a presentation given by Russell Targ at an IRVA conference wherein he told the audience that employees of Lockheed Martin had so entwined their identities with their job title and function that after retirement – not knowing who they were any longer – they passed away.

So soon the company apparently began underfunding the retirement account.

While I don’t doubt the veracity of the statement I suspect what’s fueling it is the uncertainty of what comes next.

What Do I Do Now?

As the journalist goes on to point out there are unanswered questions and it’s the uncertainy driven by the lack of information that creates [sometimes] horrific anxiety.  

Why Was I Inspired?

Aside from the fact I’ve been through times like this throughout my life…

Enough to fill a spreadsheet…

Years ago a friend recommended a book that helped me view uncertainty differently.

No longer the enemy but a normal part of the process of change.

Ironically, my life is such that if one looked up the definition of change in a picture dictionary my photo would be there.  

And yet…

Being able to compartmentalize the stages of change as William brilliantly taught his students takes anxiety out of the uncertainty associated with change.

The Between Part

This is why I’m writing this now.

If I’d been conversing with that man I could have shared my experience.

Which I believe would have gone far to help.

  • He would see he isn’t alone
  • He would see others understand the pain he is in
  • He would see that others have found a way to cope 
  • He would benefit from others sharing stories that could help him find a way to cope

The Book

I would also share with him William’s book of sage wisdom, taking time to explain why I think it could help.

Covid

When the world is going crazy…

Another reason I’m writing this now is because many people find themselves lost in this post-Covid world for the same reason. 

What comes next? 

People of multiple generations.

  • They lost links to their identity
  • They don’t know what comes next
  • They don’t know who they are because of what happened
  • They don’t know who they will be because of what happened

As somone who – though young – remembers the Hong Kong flu of the early 70s and who has had numerous first-hand accounts – from relatives – survivors of the Spanish Flu – I have perspective of life after …

But Wait There’s More!

I know the value of experience in helping reduce anxiety.

We Will Bury You!

I was – severely impoverished at the time – living in my grandma’s basement when the whole early 80s Cold War Nuclear War threat was happening.

And Peter Gabriel’s Biko.

One day overwhelmed by fear 

And having been laughed at when I expressed serious worry we were going to die

I asked my maternal grandmother if I should be scared.

Was I going to die of nuclear annhilation?

This woman who was the epitome of patience assured me I didn’t need to be afraid and then told me of having lived through the fallout of post WWI and then living through WWII and THEN watching neighbors build bomb shelters in their backyards in the immediate aftermath and…

While I’m not certain I slept better that night what I did gain was the gift of a woman – a woman who didn’t laugh at my fears – who was willing to talk about her love of life and the joys of friends and family and the little moments of peace we can find in watering a house plant or sharing the joy of a friend’s/family member’s triumph…

Especially her grandkids’ achievements and little victories.

Things many in our world would agree are the things that matter.

All of this might seem cold comfort to the ranchers whose lives have been turned upside down but I would offer them this

  • You are not alone
  • You are not your job
  • You are still you
  • There are many who will help you get through this
  • There is an amazing book that will help you navigate the uncertainty of the days ahead

Before I tell you the book I want you [readers] to know I have an upcoming project and this is an example of what you will find.

Because…

We Need To Share Our Stories

Be Well…

The Book

Transitions:  Making Sense of Life’s Changes by William Bridges.

Manifesting 101: Wouldn’t it Be Cool?

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Happy New Year readers and visitors!  I hope 2025 brings joy and wonder.  

And good health!

Given many of us are thinking of what we want – or don’t – for the coming year I thought I’d share a holiday manifesting story.

On Christmas Eve I received a gift that included a hand-written note providing special information about each piece that was part of the gift.  Unfortunately in my haste to clean up wrapping paper the note was lost.  When I couldn’t find it I assumed it was accidentally thrown away.

I felt very bad as the gift giver made a point to tell me the note provided unique details about each piece.

Over the next days as I took my morning walk I considered the lost paper with no small regret.

I felt guilty I hadn’t slowed down to look at the paper when the gift giver mentioned it.

I did something else.  I visualized the paper in my mind and thought how cool it would be if it somehow turned up somewhere.  

As in maybe it didn’t get thrown out with the trash!

When I returned from my walks I would check various places thinking it might have wound up under a piece of furniture or in some other out of the way place.

No luck.

I continued to visualize the paper while I walked and casually thought how cool it would be if it turned up.

Randomly.  

I’d like to point out I did not consider what I was doing a manifestation attempt.

It wasn’t done with intent.

A few days ago I decided instead of taking down the Christmas tree I would go to the garage and break down boxes.

Which Aaron and I would take to the recycle center later this week.  

Normally I do this type of activity with Aaron but he was on a work call so I waded into the cardboard on my own.

Along with bubble wrap and styrofoam peanuts.

I was about 2/3 through sorting recycle from trash – organizing it for further disposal when I reached into a small box and pulled out the mesh bag that had held the gift.  Setting it aside – it too had gone missing – I thought “Wouldn’t it be cool if I found that paper in some box?”  

Drum Roll

I reached into the same box seconds later and withdrew the paper I thought lost!

What makes this pretty cool from the Manifesting 101 side

  • Though I was unhappy about losing the paper I didn’t do the visualization with the intent to find it.

It was one of a number of thoughts that went through my mind while walking on a chilly morning.

  • The Wouldn’t it be Cool? was not a heart-rending level of emotion tied to it all.

In spite of my disappointment at losing the paper.

  • Something told me to break down the cardboard boxes rather than take down the Christmas tree in spite of knowing I’d be doing it myself.

It’s an activity Aaron and I enjoy doing together.

  • If Aaron had been helping me chances are the paper would have been tossed into a recycle bag and lost for good.

I didn’t tell anyone I’d lost the paper so Aaron wouldn’t have known to keep an eye out for it.

Wouldn’t It Be Nice?

I want to circle back to what I feel is an important point when it comes to manifesting.

Pun intended.

The concept of releasing/letting go of attachment to an outcome is considered an important step in manifesting.  It’s also one of the steps I’ve had the biggest challenge with.

How the heck can you not feel emotion about something you want?

Some part of me must have been working in the background over the years to give me the key to this step because I’ve come to see that whenever I’ve manifested something it went with the following

Wouldn’t It Be Cool?

Or Wouldn’t It Be Nice?

I don’t know if this will work for others but for me when I feel that phrase?  The emotion attached is pretty low level.

Caveat

This isn’t to say it means I don’t care if I get it or not or that I’m not prepared to accept what goes along with having it.  It’s just that I recognize my life won’t be ruined if it doesn’t happen.

I had a plan B – to talk with the individual who designed the piece so I could get the information.

Knowing this, I can frame future efforts in such a way as to lower emotional noise that would interfere with its coming to be.

Feng Shui: The Chicken or the Egg?

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As I was sitting at a local haunt for a working lunch – feeling pretty worn out all things considered – I took a moment to wonder why I felt not only tired but off-kilter.

And see if there was anything I could do – besides rest – to help myself feel better.

As part of the self-assessment I considered the “bomb cyclone” that reconfigured the landscape around me.

It also enabled me to unplug since not only did we have no power but no internet and flaky cell coverage.

Since I can work offline unplugged did not equal not working.

Morning routine gone with the wind

Literally

I set out on my morning walk only to discover I had to crawl beneath a rather massive tree laying across the road and sidewalk to achieve it.

Where I got to witness Mother Nature’s redecorating first-hand.

A fellow walker cleverly noted it was all Christmasy with plenty of garland.

Pine branches and boughs lying all over the place.

Tis the season.

I’m still going to purchase a decorative wreath from a local farm.

Since I slept through the entirety of the storm I couldn’t lay blame there.

I considered that from a professional perspective I’d been busy recently.

Since I love what I do I couldn’t put the blame here either.

I turned my attention to a recent home project that involved mental and physical exertion.

Feng Shui!

What’s ironic is that I was employing feng shui cures to address various life challenges.

As well as stabilizing the energy of certain areas in the home.

I’ve been doing “feng shui” since I found Terah Kathryn Collins’ book The Western Guide to Feng Shui Room by Room in 1996.

Sensitive as I am to my surroundings I’ve been utilizing the concepts instinctively for over a decade.

While there is planning and execution involved I understood the toughest part is what comes after.

Every Action = Equal and Opposite Reaction

Newton’s Third Law of Motion

Some 18 months ago we did a major purge/donate.  Shortly after life seemed to punch me in the gut.

I immediately recognized the cause and effect and vowed to do it better next time.

The reasons behind the feng shui tweaks – which include decluttering and donating – weren’t only about fixing energetic deficits.  

Life changes often necessitate action.

I decided that in the future any feng shui changes would be done methodically as always but slowly.

The idea being to sit with the change or changes for a period of time and see how things were playing out before moving on to the next.

This last round went better as I’d stuck to the plan.

Which Comes First?

The chicken or the energy egg?

I pondered the impact of feng shui activity on energy and in a moment of clarity realized that regardless of whether I did it in a big fell swoop or poking along like a tortoise when we do feng shui we are signaling to the universe we’re ready for change.

I think it’s unconcious.

I honestly believe some part of us just gets sick of looking at the same something day after day and decides to move it across the room.

Or throw it away or pass it on.

I think the work was done up front meaning we knew on some level we were ready for change.

Ready to let go.

The after chaos is reflective of the whole but the entirety of the arc of change hits us energetically.

No wonder I’m tired!

Go with the Flow Peeps!

And be well!

Vibrations: A Fun and Interesting Side of EMFs

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While earning my doctorate in holistic healing I took a class in vibrational healing.

Textbook was written by an MD on staff at Wayne State University Medical School.

I’ll admit I was a bit skeptical of some of the conclusions.

As well as some of the remedies suggested.**

I withheld judgment and passed the class with an A.  

How ironic that not long after I found myself turning to the remedies which include Bach Flower Remedies to treat mysterious symptoms that were putting a serious kink in my life.

At this point I didn’t know what EMF Sensitivity was.

Fast forward a couple of decades and I find myself observing a fun side of the science of vibrations.

Quick break to tell folks about one of my favorite videos relating to vibrational frequencies.

Enter the Dragon

Our beardie is a pre-Covid buy but one who came just in the nick of time.  

His name is Gyro

As I was the resident expert on reptiles I found myself happily front and center plucking him up and keeping an eye on him when it was time to clean the tank.

We had a Caymen alligator and a lizard when I was a  kid – later had chameleons regular guests – much to the chagrin of my cat – in our home in Florida.

While my memories of these family pets from childhood are generally positive I wasn’t too thrilled when a different reptile paid a visit to my room in Florida one night.

I woke up because my cat was at the end of my bed playing with what turned out to be a snake.  Fortunately it was a Garter and a small one at that.

Bearded Dragons have incredible personality.  

  • Gyro is drawn to deep voices 

He will turn his head and get close to the glass nearest the direction the voice is coming from.

  • Gyro loves to dance to 80s tunes preferring synth bands such as The Cars.

He’s also a huge fan of Queen.

  • Gyro is startled by the color black

When I walk by the tank wearing a black sweater or t-shirt etc he will jump and eye the nearest exit.

  • Gyro apparently knows who’s boss

If another family member tries to pick him up he struggles.  Me?  He freezes and doesn’t move.

I believe it stems from the vibrational frequency of my voice.  

Though I generally talk to him very gently/assuringly and in low volume when I’m about to pluck him up there was a time the tone was not so sweet.

I came down one morning to find the front glass not secured and Gyro eyeing the exit.  Panicked at the thought of having to chase a lizard when there is a cat in the house I yelled “Gyro NO!”  He seemed to understand the tone and froze, remaining that way as I nudged him back into the tank he was half out of and shut  and secured the glass.

Note:  I later considered that while I was repeatedly shouting “NO!” all the peeps in my house slept through the chaos.

One said “Oh I heard you yelling…”

Gee thanks for the concern…

From that day forward Gyro reacts based on the volume/tone of my voice.

I’ve not had to shout at him since.

I generally get down to eye level and talk to him in a low tone I believe sends the message all is well.

I love how he cocks his head as if he’s trying to figure out what I’m saying.

I figure he uses the vibrations -voice tone/volume – as a way to gauge whether or not he needs to hide in the corner.

Just now I cleared my throat and he moved to the corner after which I assured him from across the room “It’s okay Gyro.”

As for kitty and Gyro?  They’ve come to accept each other as evidenced by the fact many times I will come to see Nigel staring up at Gyro and he paying complete attention to the kitty – without fear.

They’ll sit like that for 30 minutes or more as if having some silent battle of Mother Nature wits.

Life as an adventure is the best.

** I was never skeptical of Bach Flower Essences as a healing modality. It was one of the first modalities the British ENT Surgeon I apprenticed with taught me.

What’s a Female to Do? Menopause and EMF Sensitivity

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Not long ago I had a conversation with a doctor who – after learning of my expertise in EMF Sensitivity – asked whether I thought the onset of menopause resulted in EMF Sensitivity.  

She’d observed an overlap of certain symptoms.  

I told her I didn’t think so but agreed to do a bit of digging so I could give a more comprehensive answer.

I found the symptom overlap interesting.

Which is why in Riding the Waves: Diagnosing Treating and Living with EMF Sensitivity I stress the importance of keeping a journal.

Adding complexity is the fact women are more likely to identify as EMF Sensitive than men.

Though I’ve worked with a number of males who’ve had/have the condition.  

My Conclusion?

Menopause itself does not cause EMF Sensitivity but there is a correlation.

As opposed to causation.

To illustrate I will discuss a different health correlation.

One I discussed on my recent Life After EMF Sensitivity interview with Lloyd Burrell.

I explained I discovered a cure for pressure drop migraines.

Something I’d been suffering from for over 35 years.

They are the result of the nature of Atmospheric EMFs.

Part of GATE – the 4 horsemen of EMF Sensitivity – which I also discussed with Lloyd.**

I explained that patients who suffer migraines are often deficient in Vitamin D though people deficient in Vitamin D don’t necessarily suffer migraines.

Correlation not Causation.

As I write in the books that document finding the root cause and ultimately curing my EMF Sensitivity, adrenals compromised by factors such as heavy metal toxicity is ultimately at fault but here’s the key difference. The adrenals are part of the endocrine system – a system responsible for producing hundreds upon hundreds of hormones not to mention enzymes – including digestive enzymes needed to digest absorb and metabolize nutrients necessary for making the hormones.

Thus the nature of the cure I discovered.

The process of menopause involves fluctuating and the shifting of hormones.  The inability of the adrenals to make crucial hormones contributes directly to EMF Sensitivity but… we’re not talking sex hormones like those involved in the process of menopause.

It’s simply that an overburdened hormone factory – the adrenals – not to mention the endocrine system as a whole – can lead to this condition.

Correlation not causation.

What’s a [female] body to do?

Ideally? Rebuild nutritional support so the adrenals and other glands can produce the enzymes and hormones that enable health and well-being.

All detailed in my books on curing EMF Sensitivity.

Be well!

** Interview will be forthcoming in not-too-distant future.

EMF Medical Research Changing Lives

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During my interview with Lloyd Burrell of Electricsense we discussed – among other things – the 4 types of EMFs.

GATE.

Lloyd brilliantly summed up the takeaway which is that the EMF load as a combined whole can wreak havoc with our health.  Needless to say when we are able to offload one or more sources of GATE the outcome can be and often is improved health and well-being.

Lloyd articulated my journey with EMF Sensitivity as it relates to GATE.

Peeling an Onion.

I explained that as I tackled the most impactful of the EM frequencies wreaking havoc in my life I was made aware of the impact of others.  

The noise of the combined whole made it so I wasn’t able to see there were more than Geologic and Technologic EM frequencies causing trouble.

Lloyd described it as peeling an onion which is apt as one by one I chipped away until I had them all under control.

Only took a few decades a lot of work and a lot of hours during which I thought I was going crazy. But who’s counting?

During the interview I offer insight into remedies and provide context to each of the GATEs as well as the combined whole.

Research to Tackle a Layer

Along my EMF journey I was fortunate enough to cross paths with a medical researcher whose EM work is definitely benefitting health.

In humans and animals.

He and his team have come up with a product put through trials that speeds healing and improves health by blocking EM frequencies.

For more information on the work of Dr. Don Nixdorf and his team visit Farabloc.

For more on my journey of Diagnosing Treating and Living with EMF Sensitivity see The World of EMF.

Be well.

Energy Entanglement and Ergotropy

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Happy and proud to share another installment of The Science in the Fiction.

Energy Entanglement and Ergotropy.  

It’s been quite the adventure this project.  It wasn’t on my white board.

 It pretty much fell in my lap.

Write It Down

I’ve had a lifelong passion for understanding the world around me.

The universe too.

The Metatron’s Army Series was a wonderful way to explore a number of scientific theories I’d had since early childhood.

Much of the story line – created in 10th and 11th grade – drew on a number of the theories.

Kismet?

When I began to see a significant number of these theories appear in science and tech publications decades later my reaction was to be stunned.

By the third one I was getting chills.

I couldn’t help wondering if the universe wasn’t trying to tell me something.

Or heal something.

My first response was to share the articles with Aaron.  Not only had he heard the stories of how my theories were often dismissed he was aware of the sometimes painful trauma that came about as a result of creating this series.

Both in my teen years and after it was published.

He was aware I was sometimes punished for pursuing research about the scientific theories.**

Something I had to relive each time I read about a theory validated.

At first I was satisfied knowing someone I trusted knew the truth.

His compassion went a long way toward healing the psychological and emotional pain.

But the more I read the more I had to relive.***

Fate or Free Will?

By this time I’d enlightened another friend of mine.  

We worked together at a Fortune 500 Technology Company.  

He was one of a group of us who walked for fitness and to share philosophical views.

I’d told him of my theories which he easily followed.

After reading yet another article validating a theory I felt I needed to share with a wider audience. 

Each article addressed a different theory.

And yet…

Each new validation dragged me through the pain of rejection and punishment.  

Not Worth It

Telling myself it was enough for me I set it all aside.

Seriously?  No Really…Again?

By the time I read the 7th article I knew I had to do the project.  I’ll admit it was often downright painful.  More than any emotion anger ruled the roost.  Anger at how I’d been treated, punished for pursuing an understanding.

The way scientists and researchers were doing – had been doing since long before Sir Isaac Newton – the father of calculus – came up with gravity.

At first I held it all inside.  Then realizing that wasn’t the best idea I told Aaron some of what I was dealing with.

The Universe Weighs In

I was seriously reconsidering whether or not to continue when I started getting words of encouragement.

Not about the project – about courage and overcoming adversity and the challenges life throws at us.

I finished the project.

Or so I thought.

Even after I thought I was done I found articles mirroring my work in Metatron’s Army.

Including today which is why you’re reading this blog post.

I suppose my takeaway at this point is that there are still plenty of mysteries to explore in the universe.

The universe within and without.

Be well!

** One person who saw the calculus equations I was working with told a family member I was practicing witchcraft. Soonafter I was questioned by a number of family members.

Brutally while those questioning read from the Bible and prayer books.

It was high school math!

It took the intervention of a future astrophycist friend and his engineer dad to help me sort that morass out.

*** In 5th grade I gave a paper on evidence of life on Mars.

My paternal grandfather who had a PhD from MIT gave me documentation from NASA from which to quote sources.

My 5th grade science teacher kept interrupting my presentation and told me if I didn’t stop speaking these lies she would give me an E on the project.

I held up the NASA documentation and told her to give me the E – which she did.

I can’t help seeing the irony of where we are now thanks to the NASA Rover.

From The Brighter Side as of October 25, 2024.

LLoyd Burrell and Life After EMF Sensitivity2

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Hey all!  Really looking forward to my upcoming interview about Life After EMF Sensitivity in which I will discuss 

  • The Journey Documented in The World of EMF.
  • GATE – The Four Types of EMF. 
  • EMF Sensitivity v EMF Awareness. 
  • The Psychological and Emotional fallout of EMF Sensitivity and how it drives research. 
  • Some frequencies block other more problematic frequencies. 
  • 5G 
  • Electric Tower Heater and the Cell Phone – an EMF story 
  • The LA Quake Trail – An EMF story

I worked with Lloyd on a previous interview about this debilitating condition – EMF Sensitivity – that had completely upended my life.  

As it has for many across the globe.

Because I want to focus on points of interest that will help others I’m taking this time to explain why I feel Lloyd Burrell is the ideal person for this interview.

Instead of during the interview.

When he first pitched the idea I was excited as I felt it important to get the word out so others could be helped.  At the same time I was pretty nervous. There was a lot of misunderstanding about this condition and many didn’t acknowledge it as a real condition – though I was consulting for doctors around the world to help them help their patients.

Outside a select few the US was the least likely to accept a condition NIH and most other countries understand is a real issue.

Lloyd immediately put me at ease reiterating not only what the objective was – which we’d agreed to via email ahead of time – but how his business works, what his hopes were, and what he would ask of me.

He was kind courteous and respectful.

Though comfortable after that brief introduction it was while listening to him during the interview that I truly relaxed.

He’d Been There

It was evident he wasn’t just trying to exploit my experience and knowledge for his own gain.  He’d been there.  He’d suffered.  

He was coming from a place of empathy.

It was also evident he truly wanted to understand.

As with me and my approach to holistic healing much of the emapthy came from knowing how terrible it is to suffer like that.

He wanted to help others.

So they didn’t have to suffer as we had – the motivation for my sharing my story.

When we crafted points to discuss in this interview it was from that same place of wanting to help others.

  • Help them understand

Is this really what’s going on?  Will they finally have answers they’ve been seeking?

  • Help them know they aren’t alone

That they didn’t “do anything wrong”

  • Help them know they have options for dealing with this condition

They are empowered

Lloyd is providing a great service to people and I’m honored to be working with him again.

The interview will not be live.  When it is available I will post the information.

Until then…

Be well!

Life After EMF Interview: Expanded topics

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Here is an updated list of topics I will be discussing with Lloyd Burrell in our upcoming interview.

I added 2 talking points.

For those working from home? The Electric Tower Heater story will be of special interest.

Until then, be well.

  • Why Lloyd Burrell is perfect for this interview
  • The Journey Documented in The World of EMF.
  • GATE – The Four Types of EMF.
  • EMF Sensitivity v EMF Awareness.
  • The Psychological and Emotional fallout of EMF Sensitivity and how it drives research.
  • Some frequencies block other more problematic frequencies.
  • 5G
  • Electric Tower Heater and the Cell Phone – an EMF story
  • The LA Quake Trail – An EMF story

The Perils of False Reasoning

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Writing believable fiction has always been important to me which is why I draw from education and experience when creating my work.

Sprinkling facts in where I feel it will do the most good.

This is especially true of my science fiction.

 As The Science in the Fiction project illustrates. 

While the project – months in the making – was an adventure this latest installment – The Perils of False Reasoning – is proving to be one of the most adventurous.

Such is the price of writing believable science fiction apparently.

As I found myself writing then rewriting the piece in an attempt to smooth it out I came to see that sometimes I can be too geeky for myself.

Either that or I was more tired than I realized when I started it.

At the end of the day I’m proud of my work and, as with the other concepts both amazed and pleased to see the parallels of my imagination brought to life.