Note: Early version excerpt from upcoming book at the end.
Sitting in a shaded area getting ready to work on Hollow Shelter and pondering the newest manifestation mystery. Or pherhaps a better word is conundrum because mystery implies I don’t understand it when I do whereas conundrum – to me at least – conveys I don’t know what to do with it.
If anything I’m a bit apprehensive because of what it means.
It was revealed last night
As I was pulling the curtains closed I happened to glance out the window and while I’ve done that dozens of times in previous months the lighting was just right to illuminate something I hadn’t noticed before.
I recognized the scene!
Not because I’d seen it before but because I remembered it – from a movie.
One I saw in childhood while living in Florida.
It isn’t that any movies were filmed here that made it so familiar. It was that I remember seeing a similar image
A grouping of houses similar in design to what I viewed last night
while watching a movie and thinking – I was 13 at the time – “Wouldn’t it be cool to live in a place like that?”
I can answer my former self since I’m living in one just like it.
I’ve written previously how many of the more dramatic manifestions in my life are tied to a time when I said “Wouldn’t that be cool if -?” What makes this one startling is that I said those words as a kid and it still came true!
I meant it too – I thought the neighborhood in the movie – the houses and the quiet street – would be so cool to live in.
What makes this one different from the up north Michigan thought from earlier childhood is that that was more generic wheras this is far more specific and tied to details of lifestyle.
I considered the type of families who lived in such a neighborhood and what day to day life would be like.
Is it what I hoped for?
A Point in Time
As someone who has moved around the country and traveled the world I have a pretty good idea what I like and don’t like in a neighborhood and much of it is dependent on where I am at a given point in time.
What’s going on in my life that will make or break a location.
I considered as I lay in bed whether or not my experience matches up to what I envisioned when I was watching the movie.
Yes and No
I concluded it’s a lot like being on the outside and looking in.
Like I felt when watching the movie.
That’s because what I wanted out of a neighborhood when I was 13 and living surrounded by retirees
Almost no kids.
is a lot different than what I would want now.
Even as it’s the same.
Clear as mud right?
If you think about it needs and wants can be the same in a general sense across multiple generations. Things like safety, walkability, close to services are on the lists of multiple generations looking for their ideal place to call home. While I appreciate the basic characteristics that fit the childhood wish I no longer need some of them.
Why feel apprehensive?
It makes me wonder what else I said in childhood that may end up manifesting.
I can’t imagine wanting it now though the previous two weren’t bad.
The concern – that I may end up with something I no longer want – brought to mind a conversation I had with The Dude about six years ago wherein I expressed my frustration that by the time I get certain things I may not need or want them any longer.
This conversation led to the solving of the equation something I will be covering on the other site when I repost pages to do with the enigmatic being.
While I’m not going to worry – too much – about what else I might have wished for that may find itself in my future I will consider ways to master the key to it all
Releasing attachment to the outcome.
Which, since we are out of the way energetically speaking, enables the universe to provide what is best in the best way with the best timing.
Yes, I thought it would be cool to live in such a neighborhood, just as I thought while watching Desperately Seeking Susan in high school it would be cool to live in a loft but in neither case – though I got both – did I really care enough about getting it to set out with it as an objective.
I know detachment is key to manifesting and I know for myself every time I’ve said “Wouldn’t it be cool if -?” I had that detachment. That doesn’t mean I can fool myself or the universe by saying those magic words. It’s the detachment that’s key and for me that can’t be faked.
I know this much. The process and steps involved with manifesting or bringing a goal to life are fascianating.
Right up my I love learning alley!
This is from an early version of Hollow Shelter
I have about 30 pages now
Rock guitarist Clint Malek came to an abrupt halt. He hadn’t expected anyone to be at the park. Most everyone who would have been tempted to sit on the bench bearing the name of the donors who made it possible was at the regional playoffs rooting for the home team. He was about to turn back the way he’d come when he caught the expression the woman was wearing, ID’d the emotion driving it.
It’d been years since he’d seen painful confusion looking back in the mirror but not so many he didn’t recall wishing for someone to talk with at such dark moments. The least he could do was offer.
Hollow Shelter will be available in the coming months.