Note: Being the Season of the Spooky, I thought I’d introduce a piece that outlines a bit of how the paranormal truly influences my writing life.
So, just finished final draft of books 8, 9, and 10 in the Metatron’s Army Series.
They are so interrelated I wrote them more or less as one long document, broke them out, edit edit edit – go crazy – edit.
My first instinct was to jump into book 11 but – I was a mental blank.
Interestingly, I wasn’t burned out or stressed – just – blank.
I took an entire day and did no writing. No work on the author career at all.
I honestly think this is a first.
What was a first was not feeling any twinge (read anxiety) about not writing.
Usually, I’ll write an article or do a video shoot or “something” so I can feel productive.
I don’t think it’s guilt – I just need to “do.”
I realized I was taking an intermission because
- It felt like the time between Gone With the Wind Part 1 and Part 2
- I have seen this series as a film first, writing second – as explanation/interpretation
It was a good feeling as I mentally poked at myself and didn’t feel any anxiety about getting onto the next in the series. The next day I took a look at book 11.
I’d written different pieces of it and different intros.
Normally, I wouldn’t worry. I’d just read through, grab the one that I liked, move on. But – this entire series is unlike anything I’ve ever written.
It’s part writing story, part watching story, part remembering story.
Several months ago, while working on the “one long document” of books 8, 9, and 10, I got to a point where my eyes widened and I said, “I remember this!”
Followed by an entire scene from NDE zipping across my mental screen/pouring into my system. It was warm and familiar and felt sooooo good. Reminded me I wasn’t alone – as promised.
About two months ago, after I’d set the first drafts of said books aside, I was laying in bed, just letting my mind wander. I was thinking about the “dark moment” and how it had made me cry for the third time.
The first being when I originally started the story/interpretation – some 35 years ago.
I didn’t really like the idea of the dark moment but it was part of the original story.
All those years ago, I had been going along and there came a moment when I “heard” “That’s not how it happened,” followed by a “movie” of something that is definitely NDE.
Years later, I was so uncomfortable with the “dark moment” that I truncated it and moved on to the next part/scene/etc.
I DESPISE getting teary eyed. Don’t want to feel sad. Nuh-uh, NO WAY!
That evening, I got a “visit” from the original character who is instrumental in the dark moment. This character reminded me of what the original situation entailed.
The non-truncated version.
This “character” then proceeded to “remind me” of the WHY of the original then showed me the “movie” I’d seen all those years ago.
After this I came to see that in truncating the situation, I may have eased some of my emotions, but I really did do an injustice to the plot and a different yet very key character.
Needless to say, I put it back in. Or rather, I will…in book 11.
And so my NDE continues to be a part of the whole that is my life – personal and professional alike.